Saturday, May 20, 2006

i've watched and heard about terrible things happening to people. death of a loved one and whatnot. but i couldn't really sympathize since i didn't know how it felt like.. until now. alam mo yung saying na "you don't really appreciate what you have until you lose them"? well that's true. andrew was.. a really amazing guy. i have been friends with his sister since grade 2. tin and i became best friends and i would go to her house and stuff. ofcourse i see andrew there tapos we would talk and stuff. translation: aasarin niya ako. it was cool and all. i really liked him. i mean, really liked him. he was cute and funny and nice and smart. but after grade school i didn't see tin all that much. not at all actually. so i spent my freshman year not really thinking of andrew. then came sophomore year and i saw him sa ateneo fair. WOAH. yun lang masasabi ko. i was shocked at how he changed. he was taller and much much cuter. pero his smile was still the same. the same boyish smile na i liked. haay. im not really making much sense.. i dont know what to think kasi. ang daming thoughts sa brain ko. when tin told me na andrew as in a car crash 2 days before, i was worried. he was in a critical condition. so i told tin na i would come visit him and her sa hospital. but then again. tin texted me this morning.. andrew passed away. i couldn't believe it. i mean! he was so young and sobrang maka-Diyos. i just couldn't accept it. this morning sobrang wala lang. its like nothing happened. i didn't want to think about it. pero a friend of mine called me tapos before i knew it, i was crying. as in bawling my eyes out. i just.. i felt really sad for tin and her family. lalo na kay tin kasi andrew and her were really close. i mean, REALLY CLOSE. parang two peas in a pod. sobrang i just.. i hated God at that moment. kasi naman. sobrang maka-Diyos si andrew. i mean, they pray the rosary every night. they're part of YFC tapos biglang mangyayari toh??? its just not fair. these things aren't suppose to happen to people i know. to people i actually care for. i don't care if these things happen to other people. i know, masama yun pero tangina! its not fair. its not. it makes you think na life really is short. you don't know when you'll leave this world.. sobrang unbelievable. parang i don't want to go to the wake.. i don't think i can bear to see andrew just... there. lying there. alam mo yun? parang im expecting him to sit up and say " JOKE LANG." then laugh it off. i mean.. UGH! ayoko na.. pero i know i have to be strong. for tin. eventhough hindi na kami best friends, im still her friend. andrew was a great guy. he didn't deserve this. alam ko he's with God now pero i just.. im afraid to be close to anyone na. i mean, look at andrew. so what if i liked him since i was in grade school? its not like we had anything going on pero im still crying over him. GOD. this sucks. andrew is as good as it gets. he's really really cute. he's nice, sweet, gentleman and really funny. sobrang galing pa niya sumayaw. he was too young. gaaah. i want my ice cream.

StiLl FaLliNg.//* 1:58 PM

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