Saturday, September 09, 2006

just like what the title said, this post is about phone talk. with tooot specifically. :) so medjo super napaenglish ako the whole 2 and half hours that we were talking. nikki slept here last night so it wasn't that awkward. anyhow, it was super fun to talk to him. as in.. you'd never expect him to be that fun to talk to since "shy and quiet" DAW siya. RIIGHT. and i'm santa claus. :P actually, i'm really glad that he wasn't what i expected him to be. i mean, sure there were awkward silences here and there. but hey, i guess it's normal if it's your first phone convo right? for some unknown reason i can't seem to remember what we talked about exactly. just bits and pieces that i'm not about to reveal to the world. what we talked about is between me and him. i'm just trying to express my kilig. haha :D anyway, happy feelings aside. i'm feeling really pathetic. i mean, if i was my beeetchis. i would kill myself. i'm behaving like some obsessed love sick teenager. which is absolutely revolting. i'm not used to feeling like this and i'm not sure i like it all too well. no, i'm not liking it at all. even my friends are getting freaked out. see, i'm not the type to dwell on a guy much. like i'd like him for a bit, and that takes time. then i'd find some flaw or something wrong with him and i'd back out. i'm not like others who actually like the guy and open themselves to hurt and pain. see, for the past week i was in cloud 9. but now? god. i came crashing back to reality. i need a break from him. seriously. god. i'm doing a complete 180 arent i? it's just that i'm not used to depending on anyone. on missing and wanting to see anyone this much. fucking tooot. i hate him. him and his stupid smile. and stupid voice. and stupid stupid comments. gaaad. i need a distraction. fast.

StiLl FaLliNg.//* 9:13 AM

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